You were a whirlwind. A non-graceful, very tormenting and much loved whirlwind. You made me excited during the January ice-storm when I was dreaming about the day Daniel would propose. You made me laugh at all the slow-motion videos I would make with my brother in our super dingy apartment. You made me so frustrated when I couldn’t even keep that dang place looking like two adults lived there (I am still not technically adult material even with the prefix “Mrs.”).You gave me too much laundry to do- that crap was pouring out of my closet and into my room, hiding that one chair that my sister and I found on the side of the road. You ruined our apartment walls with the way too lengthy “airplane” couch - in the end, we beat that freaking couch’s game when Michael and Daniel threw it over our three story balcony. No person or animal was harmed, however, the 2nd story railing got quite a bruise.
During 2014 I cried and laughed and felt insecure and had $2.17 in my account more than once. I stressed, I prayed, I didn't pray, I searched for meaning in my dried out yet somehow fruitful life.
You rounded me out with some life changes right as he placed that gorgeous ring on my finger. I experienced more anguish and fear than I had in my entire life. I feared for myself, my future, my wedding and my family. I experienced my first anxiety attack. I felt so run-down by the weight of everything. You nearly ruined me when you put my mom in the hospital. I don’t know what I would have done with myself if I had not found His saving grace in my newly found church, friends, and Daniel. Because of you, I learned so much about myself. To be honest, after everything you put me through, I will dearly miss you. It makes me emotional just thinking about all of the wonderfully beautiful times you did provide me with.
You took care of my mom in a desperate time of need. You brought me to Fellowship Church. You gave me new job opportunities. You made me feel safe. You gave me my family in my husband. Thank you for pulling me in every direction and provided me the opportunity to feel desperate and vulnerable, excited and loved, hurt and weary, strong and fulfilled.
I speak to 2014 like a friend because I will remember 2014 more than any other year I have lived on this earth. Friends make people grow. Friends are a gift from God.
Thank you, Lord for catching me when I stumbled and when I crumbled. Thank you for holding me when I needed help getting up.
Thank you for 2014.
I'm Alyssa, thanks for stopping by! A few things: I enjoy laughing, making youtube videos and thrift shopping. Currently listening to "Everything Now" by Arcade Fire. I like my coffee black and my preferred method of maxin' & relaxin' is with my husband and pup.